"We" being the human race. We have something good going, we are happy, we are doing better and then we do something to bring things back to the status quo. I keep seeing it over and over...things are great, progressing, something is done that causes doubt.
Its easier to tread ground we know intimately, much easier than going somewhere different.
Saturday, July 13, 2013
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
I miss having a blog
I had one for many years that I posted to daily. It was my Facebook before FB existed, I put up memes and funny pictures and anecdotes about my life. A lot of really private stuff but I lived by a simple rule: 100% open and honesty; if I'm being completely honest about myself including the warts, how can anything said about me hurt me? It can't.
It never did either, until I started trying to be more "ladylike" and have some feminine mystery. Here it is about ten years (give or take) from there and I find myself adhering once more to that first theory. I'm not ashamed of my life, or my warts-they make me human. So I'm going to start blogging again and I'm doing it here because this is who I am: evil, kinky and gamer bitch through and through.
Today I had a sensation I had forgotten, a need to re-visit the kink community. I miss having friends out in the lifestyle and going to play parties and munches and what not. I was doing that fourteen years ago, long before this latest bump in the road that got me evicted from a local group. I miss seeing demos and having some sort of a social life that was accepting of all of me, even maybe more so of the slave part. I don't know if I'm going to act on that need because I don't want to deal with the crap that will come my way, the ostracizing and the whispering...it doesn't particularly bother me but it might bother MG. For now maybe I'll re-familiarize myself with the online community and worry about local later.
It never did either, until I started trying to be more "ladylike" and have some feminine mystery. Here it is about ten years (give or take) from there and I find myself adhering once more to that first theory. I'm not ashamed of my life, or my warts-they make me human. So I'm going to start blogging again and I'm doing it here because this is who I am: evil, kinky and gamer bitch through and through.
Today I had a sensation I had forgotten, a need to re-visit the kink community. I miss having friends out in the lifestyle and going to play parties and munches and what not. I was doing that fourteen years ago, long before this latest bump in the road that got me evicted from a local group. I miss seeing demos and having some sort of a social life that was accepting of all of me, even maybe more so of the slave part. I don't know if I'm going to act on that need because I don't want to deal with the crap that will come my way, the ostracizing and the whispering...it doesn't particularly bother me but it might bother MG. For now maybe I'll re-familiarize myself with the online community and worry about local later.
Monday, July 30, 2012
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